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Where the four winds blow

by Pj on May.05, 2012, under Actress, Singer, Writer

Hello Everyone!

It’s amazing how things in life move so non-linearly. Is that even a word? Linearly.
As of last month, I completed some background work for Stollery Children’s Hospital, and have another project for Cleankeys this month.

What a privilege it is to land the roles and to get to have more face time in front of the camera!

That said, I took another step towards my latest focus. Being the best I can be when it comes to the things that are important to me, that move me forward, and that I can measure tangible results for.

Tom Logan, a seasoned L.A. director and writer (formerly an actor) came up to Edmonton just this past weekend and I had the fortune of taking his class.

Now, if you are serious about acting and getting more work, I would highly recommend taking any his classes. This man is completely unorthodox, hysterically funny, and really has a way with the English language that cannot be described in mere words. He is definitely someone you need to experience live and in person.

Tom’s experience as a Director is something that you will not find outside of the big cities in the States. One caveat though, Tom is not your typical PC, conservative, nice, polite Canadian; he hails from the U.S., and has the most colorful personality and anecdotes. If you are faint of heart or like living inside the box, this course and Tom Logan will stretch you.

That said, it was the most enjoyable, 30 hour weekend of work with my fellow actors I have ever experienced. You feel as though you’ve been through the ringer, but when it’s done, it’s pure euphoria and a strong sense of accomplishment that you leave with.

After being in that pressure cooker and cooking the entire weekend, Tom manged to crack open something deep inside of me.

It’s been quite a journey getting to where I am. One of the most significant epiphanies hit me, was this;

I want to be the best that I can be, at all the things that I choose to focus on.

The things I love, are music, acting, writing and singing. The things I’m good at, are, music, writing, singing, and I am working on being a better actor.

There are also the things that have been holding me back. Mostly my beliefs about things, and being attached to wanting things that are realistically, never going to happen.

There are people that I am very close to in my life, that I realize will never be able to change the essence of who and what they are.

Since I cannot change them, I can change myself. I can change how I feel about the way they are, I can change my reactions to them, I can change my attachment to wanting things or them to be different than what they are. So this week, I decided that I would let all that stuff go.

This is important, in that these are the things that have been holding me back. These people, and my “issues” with them have been what I have allowed to be the excuses that hold me back. At the end of the day, I let this hold me back. Afraid that they will not approve of me, afraid that they will not accept me the way that I am, afraid that they would be jealous, or not understand me.

The truth of the matter is, they already don’t approve of me. I will never win their approval, their support or their encouragement. They do not accept me the way that I am, they are uncomfortable with my choices because it makes them feel badly, and they certainly do not understand me. They never have, and they never will. As it stands, I have spent a huge amount of time and squandered ridiculous amounts of life energy trying to get the approval of people I am never going to get any of these things from.

So, I can let this go. I can let all of this go, and simply be at peace with all of these things. I am that I am.

My life is not a hobby, it is the main event. My work should not be a hobby – so I will no longer say that my passions are “hobbies.” They are the tapestries that I weave into my life. I’m the caterpillar in the cocoon. All the old parts have broken down, and this is the moment of phenomenal shift.

I’ve said it before, but here it is again. Maryanne Williamson’s famous quote – often attributed to Nelson Mandala:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates other.”

Thank you, everyone! For your support, your love and faith in me.

Remember, “There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.”

So, go get ‘em Tiger!

OOO’s
<3 Pauline

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Nix on Niche Edmonton

by Pj on Apr.17, 2012, under Foodie

Tonight was my first visit to Niche, a quaint little restaurant that seats about 30 people, located on 11011 – Jasper Avenue, Edmonton, AB.
http://experienceniche.ca/default.aspx

My dining companion and I were both very hungry when we arrived, and upon viewing the menu, our excitement grew.

Walking into the quaint decor, low lighting, you can see that Niche is an intimate affair. Seating for 30 patrons, we decided to sit at the end of the bar as there were no tables left. Perfect for quiet conversation. Greeted by a waitress who was wearing many hats as bartender, hostess and waitress, we were given our menus and asked us what we wanted for libations.

I chose the red pepper soup, and my companion chose the mussels as our appetizer.
The kitchen was out of mussels, and offered us clams as a substitute. All good. We were fine with clams.

Arriving at 7:15 PM, we arrived during their rush. With all the tables filled, we waited about 25 minutes for our appetizers. No bread, nothing to fill the time.

We observed the 20 something year old chef in the kitchen through the cooking window with a seemingly young helper as he prepared the dishes.

When the Red Pepper Soup finally arrived with the clams in white wine and garlic sauce, we were excited for another delicious fine dining experience.

The first thing I noticed, was that my Red Pepper Soup was steaming hot – first mistake. Fine dining never serves soup steaming hot. I thought perhaps the steam billowing off the surface was an illusion, perhaps the bowl was hot?? Nope, my first spoonful – even after blowing on the soup burned my tongue.

Alright, I thought to myself, perhaps they were just in a hurry, I decided to wait a few minutes for my soup to cool down so that I could actually taste it.

My companion meanwhile had started taking the clam meat out of the shells and tried his clams. They were tiny, barely the size of half a beer nut. Incredibly salty and every second clam had the lovely “crunch” from sand, dirt, or something being inside the meat.
After 5 minutes or so, I thought I would give the soup a second chance, and I would actually taste it.

Now, this was Red Pepper Soup. Upon first taste, all I could tell was that it was pure acidic tomato puree with crème fraiche in a swirl pattern. No hint of smoked paprika was evident in the taste of the soup. The crème fraiche was solid, and did not blend into the soup. Can we say disappointment? Nom, nom, definitely NOT! Oh, and the biggest problem, no hint of red pepper, or evidence of said item could be found in the soup. They did call is Red Pepper Soup, right?

Now, at this point, over 30 minutes had passed, and our waitress, had not even bothered to ask us what we wanted to order for our main course. Although there were 2 waitresses on that evening, they were unable to keep up to the 15 or so patrons in the tiny restaurant.
Perhaps the terrible appetizers should have been the hint to just cut and run, but we believe in second chances, so we decided to finally flag down the other waitress and ask to order our mains.

We chose the Duck Confit and the Swordfish.

Again, after another 20 minutes or so, our dish arrived. By this time, there were only a few patrons left in the restaurant.

The first bite of the Swordfish was ok. It had a nice light taste. No black olive tapenade, and no tomato basil salsa accompanied my dish. The couscous with citrus was the most bland couscous I had ever eaten in my life. Imagine, orange rind and non-salted couscous underneath swordfish. Clearly not a compliment. To make matters worse, within two bites, the swordfish began to take on that dry, hard, gritty texture of overcooked fish. The only highlight was the tomato mushroom accompaniment to this meal.

The Duck Confit on the other hand arrived sans apricot cranberry chutney, and was just a plain dry duck leg with no accompaniment, the sweet potato dumpling was conspicuously MIA, and my companion could not tell whether it was chicken or duck. It looked absolutely dried out, and had very little flavor, and even upon tasting, he had to ask me if it was chicken or duck. Served with this dish was risotto – a little too tangy and salty for an after taste. However, we must give credit to the well prepared asparagus that came with this dish.

When we were almost finished our meals, our waitress did ask us, how we liked, them, I responded, it’s okay. She simply nodded her head, said something like “oh” and turned back to cleaning wine glasses at the bar.

I can credit three things that I liked at Niche, the décor, the wine recommendation of Reisling wine, and the preparation of the asparagus.

Total bill at the end of the evening, a little over $89. My companion felt bad for our waitress and left her a descent tip.

Can we say failure??? I do not exaggerate; this was incredibly disappointing for one of the featured restaurants in this year’s Downtown Dining offerings. Putting Niche in the same group as Share, Wildflower Grill, Tzin to name a few is shameful.

Décor: 4.5/5
Service: 3/5
Food Quality: 1/5
Food Tastiness: 1/5
Value: 1/5

As we walked out, we were hungry and honestly would have traded our meal at Niche for a meal at MacDonalds. That would be saying something as MacDonald’s is a maximum twice a year event of desperation for us.

Final thought:

Niche… making MacDonalds look like fine dining.

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“I Think I Do…”

by Pj on Jan.28, 2012, under Uncategorized

Hello Everyone!

On Wednesday this past week, I had the privilege of being an extra on the set of “I Think I Do,” a romantic comedy that just finished filming in Edmonton.

Featured in this movie are, Mia Kirshner, Sara Canning, Jenny Cooper and James Thomas. Release date is set for some time in 2013.

You can read all about it on the www.imdb.com page for it:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1519618/

It was great to get to visit the set again and be a part of the action for a change. :D

I must say that the actors and crew were all fantastic, personable and friendly. Edmonton definitely has a fantastic community for projects like this. To see so many people working on the project that I have worked with or met in the past was definitely a treat. Anyone looking to film in Alberta, and especially in Edmonton will find an amazing treasure trove of talent for actors and crew located in this capital city of Alberta.

A huge shout out to the amazing cast and crew of “I Think I Do.”

OOO’s
Pauline
<3

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Work in Progress!

by Pj on Jan.14, 2012, under Uncategorized

Hi Everyone!

Sorry for the state of the site. It is a work in progress. Please check back soon, as I will be updating and rebuilding the site as quickly as I can.

Thank you all for your patience!!

OOO’s
<3 Pauline

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Does the site need a facelift?

by Pj on Jan.14, 2012, under Uncategorized

Hi Everyone!

I haven’t heard yet if they can fix my site, so it comes down to, do I start all over again and re-make the entire site?

Let me know if any of you have any suggestions or ideas on how to make www.paulinelee.com a better site.

2012 may not just be a New Year, it may be a new beginning for paulinelee.com

Okay, I will march on, and start looking at different designs and layouts and let’s get this thing rolling forward.

Happy Friday the 13th! :D

OOO’s,

<3 Pauline

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Happy 2012, Everyone!!

by Pj on Jan.08, 2012, under Uncategorized

Hello Everyone!

It looks like 2012 has started off with the www.paulinelee.com website going down during a routine backup.

Needless to say, I haven’t been able to find out if the main server can restore the site, so I am putting this up until I find out from my ISP.

Anyhoo…. Happy New Year to you all!

I am looking forward to 2012 bringing many exciting and new changes.

This year will see me continuing with my collaborations with San Jaya Prime and more electronic music coming down the pipe in April/May of this year.

I will also keep you posted on the acting front! :D

Just wanted to let you all know that I am still here, and to apologize for the state of the site.

Hopefully, I will have it back up and re-built in the next couple of weeks.

Wishing you all a fabulous 2012, with all the happiness, peace, love, health, prosperity and success that you can handle.

 

Huge Hugs,

<3 Pauline

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